We just never really know what awaits us as we travel through our earthly existence. Any plans, intentions can be torn to shreds in the blink of an eye.

At the beginning of the year after a pleasant morning wandering the art galleries with my beloved, on reaching home I felt unwell with a fire in my chest. No previous symptoms except tiredness which was pretty much my norm working 6pm to 4am security shifts, sometimes longer.

My wife drove to the gold coast hospital just as a precaution and within 10 minutes of walking into the emergency department I was naked on a table surrounded by equipment and complete strangers. My next awareness was of being woken from a dream by a masked doctor covered in leads with tubes in my arm and groin and a sore chest. I had what is anecdotally referred to as a widowmaker . 100 Percent blockage in the LAD which required a tube inserted via the femoral artery in the groin up into the heart and a balloon inserted to open the damaged area and wire mesh installed.

In the blink of an eye my life is changed, my heart muscle is 20% weaker. I am dependent on drugs twice a day to thin my blood control and regulate heart functions. My diet and exercise always on my mind. A preexisting auto immune disease has flared up also and dictates my daily life.

I haven’t worked since the heart attack and no longer feel the same about most things with a low tolerance to idiots and bullshit. I really have no idea what is next all I know is I have to do different.

So, what next. This blog is part of the process, as whether I am any good at it or not, I like to write.

I have been teaching myself guitar and I use that as a meditation tool, I like the zone in which it places me.

I continue to seek out and connect with alternate viewpoints and information, with the hope that one day people wake up to the truth of how every aspect of this world is built on deception. So much is deliberate manipulation to create a matrix of control.

Death has a way of clearing away the veils and allowing one to see what is real and what isn’t. Looking at the world is like watching a really bad c grade movie. Really don’t know whether to laugh or cry the absurdity is so obvious.

So, my stories will touch on the world as I see it and what arises from the moment and I give you fair warning, beyond here there be monsters.